How should I start with what I am about to say and write in here? Should I say that just like every medicine has Overdose Warning my contents in this article have some hypertension or over thinking warning? No I am not going to blog that I do not brush my teeth in the morning but do that once I reach my office or say I saw some diamonds in my backyard! Duh! Think if diamonds were growing in the writer’s backyard then Africa would have been saved from hell bound diamond wars! (Watch Lords of War)
I was discussing my writings with the site’s administrator (Sandy) and we spoke more than an hour! Later, I went back to my work as usual. It is now 2:51 p.m. (Pacific Time Zone) afternoon and I am staring at my desktop hoping to find a way to pass another 2 hours before proceeding towards home. This is how most of my non-working days pass by. Few days back I tried to read a Novel, written about a story of a man who has become an entrepreneur from a driver. It tells a story about every man living on the street who can be an entrepreneur given a chance. Here I remember how Danny Boyle’s movie Slumdog Millionaire recites the story of poor Jamal, who is just fortunately uneducated to give correct answers to the questions he is asked in the reality show, thus becoming the youngest millionaire of India. Yes it can happen only in India.
These days I am not doing much with friends and my outdoor activity life is burn in the heat of California, just like the wildfires in Southern California. The last time I was at San Francisco with couple of friends, had dinner and later went to Ruby Skye. Guess what, I was not dancing nor I was drinking there, the music just sucked my excitement out of my soul and mind. I vowed not to step on Ruby’s door ever! That was the end. No it was the beginning of a new phase which I entered few days back. It may be a saturation point of a life cycle from where I can just say what’s next? Do you feel like you have enough and one should be doing something productive in life to keep recieve eternal happiness not just a substitute of happiness. Will this be wise to ask that how can a person get self happiness? There are phases of life and each phase of life needs to taken care before reaching the next one.Once the need for food, shelter and security is met, person looks for self-esteem, power, money and so on, but that list keeps on growing until that person dies. What happens after death I am clueless may be they have another phase of life in death!
Everything I do feels like this is not what I am looking for or the happiness I receive is short lived or just filling some potholes of life. To me it looks more or less like very dramatic or artificial as if I am trying to figure out something but not finding the real happiness and then get substitute of happiness in life. For example, why does it matter if my friend goes to Hawaii for vacation and why shall it matter if my siblings or my spouse/partner do not call me for a month or so? Instead, if a partner who I am not seeing frequently, should be replaced by another, who I can share happiness, or fill the vacuum of life by some other means of short lived happiness. What about just mix with people, have coffee or dinner, go for clubbing, movies or play sports together and at the end of the day return back to your home. So why does it matters if the partners don’t stay together? People are substituting partners when their better half is gone for business or live in another city. Will you be happy to feel guilty? I do not believe in love anymore, but I do believe in luck. Luck is something where the person gets the right opportunity when right time arrives at the right place. So say, even if you are in the right place, but the right time has not arrive, then you are not the right person to receive happiness. Will you say,"I will feed the poor kids for recieving eternal happiness"! Big deal, aren't rich people doing such jobs out there everyday? Are they all happy souls? Then Elvis, Marilyn Monroe,Nicole Anna Smith, MJ and name it, would not have died of drug induce or overdose!
So what is your definition of happiness? Do you think can get your answers here?
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